hard day

today was a hard day. thinking about and missing my in-laws. i am hoping that these first 30 days of work go by fast so that i can get my insurance in effect so that i can go to the dr. i also think that i need to go to the eye dr i do not think my glasses are working all that great for me any more. i am going to be sad when my godson and his mom and dad move back to arizona. i enjoy watching him when i can. it helps me feel better as a cant have on my self. yet. we are still hoping and praying that the lord will bless us with a baby soon. for some reason i think that the days are going by slower and slower everyday. i am watching the movie helping hands and i wish that things like that would happen today. this is a good movie. one day everyone that is in pain and hurting will be pain free and not hurting anymore. 

life and update

life has been going good it is kinda lonely at the house my husbands mom and dad are out of the state and in Florida and getting started at the cancer center there. it is not looking to good. about a month before he left he had something that looked like a blister above his lip removed and now it is coming back and when they had it removed before they tested it and is was the cancer the has spread to his skin. they met with the cancer dr. today and he said that there were more options that he could take orally i am not sure the cancer dr. thinks to much is going to help. we believe in god for a miracle. life has been better but i guess the lord never gives you anything that you can not handle. it is now in the lords hands. and we pray for a miracle.

water fast?

i am thinking about starting a water fast to help me get closer to the lord and i hope in getting closer to the lord that i will be able to hear what i am to be doing. i am unsure at this time how long i will be doing it for but i hope to do it for at least a month to start out with or longer if i need to. if any one reads this please tell me what your thoughts are. ( by water fast i mean nothing goes in my body but water.)     I DID NOT DO THIS as i read more into it and it is really not that good for you

long time

i figure it is about time that i post a new blog. nothing has changed except i find myself wanting, as of lately. it really sucks that i want things but i have no way of getting those things. on the up side i got a car 2 weeks ago for 200 and all it needed was breaks and roters which cost me 60 all together. yay. on the down side to this the person that i bought the car from has been driving me crazy about getting the title and making excuses. but i was driving it the other day and guess what i hit a pot hole and the tire goes flat and it is dark and the ground is all wet from the snow melting. so i get to change a tire in the dark hardly any light and i get to get all wet because of the water. hey i cant be to mad because at least i know how to change a tire thanks to my husband and his family. last week my mother and father in law left cheyenne wyoming to go to florida to take him to the cancer center. they have just got to his sisters house and are settled in then they take my dad in law to the hospital because he has a bad cough. come to find out he has a respitory infection. yuck. and are keeping him at the hospital for 24 hours. then when they release him they are heading to the cancer center to get everything started there. we are unsure how long they are going to be gone but are hoping that they help him get better while they are away. then yesterday we are at my brother in laws and we get home and one of our dogs had died while we were out.... i can only hold on to the hope that god never gives you more than you can handle, and sometime soon i will come out on the other side of this with everything ok, and maybe a miracle on the way i hope.